Jenny's Journal

3:36am: Costume Partizzle Fo Shizzle!
Ok... leave it to me to have the brilliant (and I do mean brilliant!) idea to have a COSTUME party in the middle of November! :) But it's what I do. So here's the deal... it's going to be at my house on Saturday November 18th anytime after 8. If you need directions or anything and to let me know if you're coming call/text me and let me know or leave me a message on here. It's a COSTUME party so try and be here in some kinda costume (your birthday suit is not a costume btw... ). There will be food and drinks and I've invited my friends' band to come play as well so there will be live music too! I figured I didn't have a Halloween party this year so why not have a "belated" one just the same?! Any food or drinks you can bring in addition to what I'm going to have here will be greatly appreciated. It's going to be fun!
<3
~Jenny~

11:26pm: DISNEYLAND
Disneyland tomorrow... I'll be there till around 5. Anyone wanta meet up give me a call!!!
<3
~Jenny~

11:43am: A Motivational Speech for Myself
Today is my apt at 4. I still don't have a job... things are getting kinda craptastic. I'm prayin for a miracle here... c'mon... work with me... I can do this.
<3
~Jenny~

9:47pm: Thursday Thursday
It's so weird how things start for me on Thursdays. This whole madness that went on for the past two weeks began on a Thursday... crazy. I'm pretty sure it ended this Thursday as well... I'm basically writing this to stop myself from crying... venting a little I guess... I put this out as a warning... Keep your friends as friends... not friends as lovers- no matter how much you may love them already.
I vote they change "Murphy's Law" to "Jenny's Law"... it makes more sense.
Everything that can possibly go wrong... does.
Everytime something seems perfect... it really isn't.
Everyone that I hold close to me... dissappears.

Fuck.

I'm sorry...

Who the hell is Murphy anyways?

Can people really change?
NO.

The past two weeks I've realized that I was living in a damn dream world. Fun while it lasted... but I think it's over between us. Probably because there wasn't anything there to begin with. It was all in my mind.

I've decided I really am crazy... because I can't just do what normal people do... and chillax.... and not freak the second someone else comes into the picture. I have no patience. But despite the odd decisions I've made lately... I have a bigger fear of being strung along or cheated on than of falling for someone who is closest to me and would hurt the most to lose. So I freak. This may make no sense to anyone but me... Do not try and be with your best friend who just happens to be getting out of a marriage with your other best friend. In my case... you only get hurt.

By the way being a masochist is not fun...

Damnit... couldn't stop the tears.

Fuck.

<3

~Jenny~

9:22pm: Forever and a day
Wow... haven't been on here in forever. My last post was kinda angry...lol... hope everyone's doing well.
<3
~Jenny~

11:40am: Fuck Camping
Fuck him! Fuck her! Fuck them! Just fuck it all... I'm so tired of giving my all. I'm so tired of believing everyone's lies. I'm just tired. He is a douche bag... why I fell so hard, so fast... it's not clear to me... but the douche bagness is clear to me now. One month of no talking to me unless via text ala one word RESPONSES to me... fuck that shit. He could've said we're done... no mas... it was just a fling. But no. No words to give me closure... just silence. Dark fucking silence... always me waiting for more... one more call, one more text, one more kiss, one more time... fuck it. Back down this tunnel I go... into the downward spiral of depression that I'm so acustomed to... putting the thoughts in my head down here just make me look dramatic... but they're ricocheting back and forth in my mind like stray bullets and I want them out. I'm surrounded by couples... I love them but I'm hurting inside. There's no escape from them if I don't want myself to drown in my room alone and completely dwell on the shit. All of the shit... I miss JJ... I miss him... I wish I had wings... I need some serious feel-better time... Maybe I'll just go to the beach... not go in the water tho cuz of my new tat on my back... but water and the ocean are so soothing for me... so yea... wow this post came out kinda angry... bye...
<3
~Jenny~

6:26pm: cRAZY?
Oh so much has happened... my JJ face is getting better... my love life has come to a screaching hault despite the fact that my last post was the COMPLETE opposite... (yet almost a month ago HA FUCKIN HA), my friends are crazy... I'm crazy... life is... well... crazy. So yea... there's your update.
:)
<3
~Jenny~

9:59pm: Stupid...
You ever find yourself really drunk and realize that you are going to do something stupid later... and you know you don't want to stop yourself? Ugh... Damn you Corona, Damn you Seis de mayo, damn you funny boy... ugh...
<3
~Jenny~

7:49pm: Blah...on your face.
Sometimes people can be real assholes... it's unfortunate.

<3
~Jenny~

4:58pm: I'M ALMOST COMPLETELY LEGAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OKies.. so the tenative plans for next weekend are as follows.

Friday March 3rd anytime after 8, I am having an early bday party. It's going to be fun... music, drinks, pizza, snacks, and the randomness that usually happens at my parties. :) So yea, hopefully all who needed them received invitations. If you have any questions or whatnot... just let me know on here or call me.

Then on Saturday March 4th (my actual bday) plans have been set to go to Disneyland. I'm hoping to have enough by then to upgrade my pass to the Deluxe season pass... should be great. Then afterwards have a night out at Downtown Disney with everyone and do a little drinky drinky with my buds. :) That also should be fun. Anyone who would like to join me let me know because the more the merrier!!! So far I think there might be about 7 going already... I'm not entirely sure tho... AAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! DINEYLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So yea, then Sunday my parents are having a party with the family or something... which should be interesting. :)

Yeah, that's about it... hope everyone has a lovely week... I'm getting excited! :)

<3

~Jenny~

10:36pm: Have you seen my dog???
Today my dog Stitch got out...

I guess around 6 the doorbell rang and my grandma went to answer the door and my dog got out... and so while I'm driving home from work I get a call from my grandma saying that Stitch got out about an hour before her calling me... so I rushed home to search for him. I drove all over the Texas track and even had both my parents and Josh and Angie driving around helping me look for him. No such luck.

So yea...

If you see him or know of anyone who found a 7 month old German Shepherd puppy... please let me know. He isn't fixed, he's tan with a black tip on his tail and black muzzle, and didn't have his normal collar on... just a choke chain. And he's developed a little black spot on the back of his tongue. I just hope he's ok...

~Jenny~

7:43pm: Network Omni!
Ok... so here's an update.
Wednesday- After a magical day of wandering around with Heather, seeing a ton of people I haven't seen in a million years it seems, I got a job through Adecco Temp agency making $14 an hour answering phones at a place in TO called Network Omni. Basically what I do is I get a call from a company or emergency operator asking for assistance in helping a customer that they can't understand (welcome to the language barrier!) So I help by transfering them to a translator who will be able to interpret what is being said and travel back and forth between the two people in the conversation. Woot Woot! Then Heather dyed my hair red again... no more blue... sad but true... hey that rhymes! :)
Thursday- First day at NetworkOmni. Met tall cute guy who wound up being not just there for his first day too... but lost like me as well. :) LOL! The day went fine... oh and then he told me he liked my shoes... ( my boots are hott... I know it... u know it... and oh baby he knows it!) LOL!!! Then I realized my old best friend Stacy works there too! I hadn't seen her in like a freakin year! Now that was cool. Then I went dancing with Ang at Borderline... oh yea... I danced it up... from line dancing to hip hop to the chicken dance!!! We're insane...
Friday- That would be today... Work was cool... I was actually ON phones by myself today... kinda freaky... but it went ok I guess... The 911 calls were kinda freaky tho... they're actually 911 calls with irate people who speak Spanish or another language on the other line... yea. Then I took my break and this really hott guy who speaks Russian and works with us took his break with me! Oh yea... sexy accents are a huge downfall people... You don't understand!!! :) That was cool... now I'm sitting home being a lump... yes... a lump...
Tomorrow- I do not get to go see FOB... and that both angers and saddens me... tho I could sit home all day and watch the live feed on KROQ.com... but it would anger my friends. Bleh...
Where's my bottle of SoCo?
LOL
:)
<3
~Jenny~

11:16am: Lame
Unfortunately finding a job this time around has not been as easy as the last few times... those happened within a day or two... I'm scared for Christmas... I only got half of my shopping done and I don't really have anymore money to spend for gifts... unless I can get a job in the next week... the bills are coming... things are getting lamer and lamer. So I just want you all to know that if you normally would've been expecting a gift from me... it may only be a card for the weeks to come unless I get a kick ass job before Christmas... but I will def try and make it up to you giftwise after I get some monies. :)
<3
~Jenny~

11:07pm: Hmmmm...
10 Things That Make Me Happy Right Now

1. Music... yes... hence my name
2. My wonderful friends who are here for me when I need them most
3. My family who's being reasonably nice to me for once
4. My evil dog... no matter how evil he really is
5. The thought of getting a better job that I'll actually enjoy
6. Winning the lottery... oh yea... did I forget to mention that I'm a millionairess now? Oh wait... that never happened... jk... my imagination then I guess... it makes me happy when used properly.
7. The thought of Disneyland on Saturday... Wanta join me?! No... seriously.
8. Christmastime... I love it even when I'm alone...
9. My blue hair... obviously
10. Myspace and LJ... they help me vent... and I'm addicted.
I want an 11... just cuz I'm me...
11. Watching my shows on Tuesday and Wednesday... House, Bones, Invasion and LOST. Happy thoughts...

I tag...
Well I don't really feel like tagging anyone... do this at your own risk. Hehe. But I blame Kristin for this because she tagged me! :)

<3
~Jenny~

1:01pm: I'm Fired...
I'm Fired
Current mood: angry


Well no pun intended... I really am fired. How fucking lame. And I'm sent out the door with "I hope you have a happy holidays." Happy holidays my ass!

So last week I quit Regal. I was just over it... done with the crap. Possibly a stupid move on my part... because now I have no job.

I got let go from KC Sales in Westlake after over 8 months... for the most bullshit reasons ever. 1. that I don't seem to like my job (at times I don't but for the most part I did). and 2. that my work is declining and I'm making mistakes. Fuck that shit! For the last two weeks I have been cranking out so much fucking work for them that I'm probably close to doing the work of 3 people. And I haven't made any mistakes. Yesterday I got all of their huge Christmas orders done and there's been no recognition whatsoever for the last 2 weeks of massive work I've done. Only that I'm not doing enough aparently. They tried pinning 2 lost orders on me. Both were done by me and done correctly. Something happened where the other companies never received them tho. Simple fax machine error. NOT MY FAULT! BUT I fixed them anyways and got everything expedited quickly for them because of the error yesterday. And because they were huge amounts it fell on me when they needed reasons to let me go. Fuck them. I'm the scapegoat... I'm always the fallback person when it's hiring/firing season. Go me. I just wish I hadn't done so much for them in the last week or two... because the person they hire in my position wont have nearly enough work to suffocate them and make them want to shoot themself in the face. Darn. Anyways... I hope today gets better. I guess it's time to update my resume considering that I have NO jobs now and that it hasn't been updated in 8 months. Blah... The urge to write bah humbug is uncontrollable...

~Jenny~

10:47am: Whoa...
I don't think I've ever gone this long without posting... wow...
~Jenny~

9:09pm: Happy Halloween!!!
Wow... I know most of my posts are just me bitching about random shite... or about the same person not using his name the whole time... but this weekend has been really cool dispite all that.

The Fall Out Boy concert was awesome and I'll have pix up of me, David, Jen and Christina sooooooon!!! Oh yea... and Fall Out Boy!!!!

Friday was rad.... chillin with Heather and Dave is always a blast. Playing Mario Cart and just having fun. Going on a "double date" and having someone really nice and funny buy dinner, rare event for me, but always cool.

Then the wonderful parties last night... whew... Purvis and Heather... both were great. Glad I got pictures at both... before things got too crazy. Courtney, I hope you're alive. Anyways... things were super fun... I REALLY WANTED THAT SMOKE!!!! Thanks Ken, Heather and Dave for protecting me!!! Tomorrow should prove to be fun as well... I'm wearing a corset to work... dressing like a bar wench/pirate... now that is going to be amusing.

Then tomorrow night I can't decide if I want to go to either of the 2 clubs I've been asked to go to or to go out to the West Hollywood Halloween Carnival or to go trick or treating with my little sister... I'm lost... oh well... I guess I'll figure it out eventually. :) Hope everyone has a wonderful rest of the weekend and Happy Halloween tomorrow!!!

:)

<3

~Jenny~

9:08pm: This was funny...
musicfiend10's Halloween party:

_t_a_r_a_3_1_ dressed as a character from "Reservoir Dogs".
alexchuang dressed as a chicken.
baby_hands dressed as Dick Cheney.
bluefotoeyes dressed as a halfback for the Browns.
bumpin_da_bass dressed as a vampire.
cheshire11_7 dressed as a Nicole's Gizmos employee.
crazyltlmonkey dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Mariah.
daredevil444 dressed as the Duke of Temple, and it suited them all too well.
deb8g33k dressed as the Governor of Georgia.
g00dtimes dressed as a Level 8 thief.
gina_marie12 dressed as a hyper mummy.
hold_me_tight dressed as Hillary Clinton.
i_wish_u_cared dressed as David Letterman.
inthemof dressed as the Governor of Arkansas.
kasmoie dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Dynamic Contender.
kis_and_tel dressed as a bottle of Eqzolnix, though it looked more like the Duke of San Francisco.
kts_zebra_lvr dressed as a fork.
ktsdashit dressed as Ronaldo.
lostnspace31 dressed as a alibi.
loves_it___ dressed as a resolution.
lovesyouxox dressed as the love child of Tom Cruise and Calista Flockhart.
lovewithabullet dressed as a cyclone.
luv_alwys_romeo dressed as someone called "Brent Winter", but you've never heard of them before.
nodata dressed as Daffy Duck.
orangeatang dressed as Jennifer Lopez.
psycochick1229 dressed as a weak approximation.
radical_bebop dressed as a third baseman for the Orioles.
rude_monkee dressed as something buttered, but what, specifically, you can't tell.
samiam082 dressed as a new superhero: Onyx Slayer.
sethakam1 dressed as Optimus Prime.
severed_rose dressed as Frylock.
sexychicken dressed as Mary-Kate Olsen with her very own conjoined Ashley.
shortstatus dressed as a Aurora.Net employee, and it suited them disturbingly well.
simitinydancer dressed as the Marquis of Sonromdyne.
smeagolthegnome dressed as Franklin D. Roosevelt.
starlightpunk dressed as Kate Hudson riding a badger.
superyen dressed as "Bones" McCoy from "Star Trek".
tbmanwhore dressed as Cindy Crawford's brother.
thebiscuit5 dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Lumpy Stinkerhead".
tikitushi dressed as a bear.
tracy_puff dressed as a character from Harry Potter and the Parliament of the Anvil.
true2u3883 dressed as Andrew Johnson.
twistedfairy19 dressed as the Restless Power Ranger.
umm_yeah dressed as a skeleton.
walter_z_fish2 dressed as your brother, and it suited them all too well.
whitephoenix72 dressed as a executive paper pusher.
whosjj_ dressed as a 1960's hippie child.
wifeandmommy dressed as Mena Suvari.
xxniikkiixx dressed as a diplomat from Equatorial Guinea.
zee_special_1 dressed as a Clone Trooper.

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5:13pm: Green Day Pictures!!!!!!
At Green Day I took a million pictures of myself... because I looked silly with all my makeup on my eyes... but I didn't care... I was in search of the best new MySpace picture... Just to warn you... some of these are disturbing. :D
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10:19am: size test

3:25pm: Bored Bored Bored
Last night had its lame parts and its fun parts. Visiting Lara was nice. The drive there was nice. Three friends reminiscing about the good old days... that was priceless. I still felt so alone tho... and I almost fell asleep driving home cuz someone else was tired and not talking... but we made it. :) Funtimes... so yea... that's all. I'm really bored at work at the moment... and I'm so freaking tired. I hope this weekend is fun. Tomorrow morning is Dagorhir and possibly Magic Mtn for Fright Fest tomorrow night... Sunday is work at Regal in the morning... blah on that. So yea... this post is the product of absolute boredom.

Sometimes I wish I had wings and could fly away and find someone to love me.

<3

~Jenny~

1:01pm: Extraordinary Girl
I know an extraordinary girl... she's awesome... and I hope she feels better soon...
Love you J...


"Extraordinary Girl"
By Green Day

She's an Extraordinary girl
In an ordinary world
And she cant seem to get away

He lacks the courage in his mind
Like a child left behind
Like a pet left in the rain

She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying

She sees the mirror of herself
An image she wants to sell
To anyone willing to buy

He steals the image in her kiss
From her hearts apocalypse
From the one called whatsername

She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying

She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
Some days it's not worth trying
Now that they both are finding
She gets so sick of crying

She's an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl

<3
~Jenny~

11:34am: i cAN dIE hAPPY nOW...
Last night was the Green Day concert... I'm so overwhelmed with excitedness and excstaticness at how fucking amazing it really was I'm actually sorta at a loss for words... I will def write all about it when I can slow my heart beat and take Billie Joe's face from my thoughts for 2 seconds... I wish my camera hadn't died... but that show will be emblazoned in my thoughts for the rest of my life... from American Idiot to BJ sticking his hand down his pants and getting the entire audience to moan with him to the amazing pyrotechnics to BJ dedicating When September Ends to the Hurricane Katrina victims to making fun of Bush to the bunny that was on stage to doing TWO ENCORES to the unbelievable talent to the FUCKING AMAZINGNESS to ROCKING MY FUCKING SOX OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OK OK... I'm getting worked up again... I'll write more about it soon... whew... thanks so much Kat... ONCE IN A LIFETIME EXPERIANCE and we saw the last night of their 2005 tour... night two in Carson... I can die happy now.
I'll have pictures of us before the camera died soon...
<3
~Jenny~

1:03pm: Wedding Pix! These are great! Caution... sexy people are in these pictures!!!
OK these are the Wedding Pix from Angie and Joshy's wedding... they're really cute... but knowing how my computer works they're all probably huge. But look at them anyways... they're great! :)
Everything was beautiful...
I absolutely love this picture... I love ya Joshy!

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10:57pm: The Evolution of Stitch...
Ok so I'm bored... but these are funny/cute...
He's a bucket head... this was hilarious actually...

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